Catching up - the last five years in a nutshell.

Well its been awhile since I posted in this blog...its amazing to think how much has happened in five years! All I can say is that God is good and everything happens for a reason. My first thought was to start a new blog...but indeed...I thought this one was the most appropriate one for my life. As my friends reunite almost the first question they ask is - what have you been up to? Most know that my life is never boring! To fill in the blanks - in March 2013 - I lost my son to a tragic accident in LA. He was an alcoholic and homeless in LA. He loved that lifestyle and looking back...it was a tough road being a mother of an alcoholic - oscillating between enabling and being angry. It was indeed a life of crisis for us both. Now I would like to think he is in heaven and no longer being chased by demons.(more later) Six months later my husband of 14 years came home and said I was fat and ugly and he had found a younger woman at work. It landed up she was married and had three kids! LOL. He left and we had a long - emotional filled separation. I was blindsided but it all worked out - God is Good. I love my single life and found Me for the first time in a long time. (more later) During this emotional crisis, 6 months after my husband left - my father unexpectedly died. He went to sleep and had a heart attack. I miss him so much as he was my rock -although sometimes hard to get along with - I loved him dearly and he talks to me everyday via the talking fish (more about that later). My divorce was final in Dec 2014 after I returned from a lengthy cruise to Australia and New Zealand - my life was starting again. Dating - ugh! that was another issue. More on that later! It took awhile to rebuild my self esteem - but counseling helped (thank you !) and I no longer feel like the ugly duckling with no future. (more on that later too!) A few months later my mother died - also unexpectedly. She had dementia but a loving spirit. I know she felt uncomfortable in the earthly skin and is happier with the aliens or angels...we will never know. So that was 2015. In the last year I resurrected my nonprofit and threw myself into many community boards and projects. I also lost about 30 lbs and am happy with who I am. (well maybe I have gained a few back - LOL!) but I have a new attitude. I love to work on my house (Winnsboro) but I miss my grands - now 3 and 2 who live in B'ham. A long 6 1/2 hours away. I also realized that I am not as young as I used to be and driving long distance is not such a pleasure anymore! I also inherited two beautiful quarter horses from a neighbor who passed away recently and lease the 6 acres next door. They are big pets - have not been ridden in many years and just cost $$$. But again they re beautiful and sweet. Thank you God for my friends who have helped me through these crisis and my new friend who helps me around my house and land. I am always pushing myself to experience new things, work on my bucket list and take one day at a time (in gratitude) as I see my friends passing away, being disabled or suffering in some crisis (emotional or otherwise) I thank god everyday for my life and where I am today. He knows what is best for us ...at all times. We may not see the whole picture...so we have to learn to trust in him.